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初入職場 Entering the Workplace
剛離開學校時，我對職場的認知非常不足，所以在找工作時，根據社會上大多數人的建議，設定了「錢多、事少、離家近」的標準。但我也心知肚明，「錢多」和「事少」常常是衝突的兩個條件。錢和生活對我都同等重要，因此我參考了政府網站，設定了收入在同齡人6-70%水平並且能準時上下班的工作底線。
面試了兩到三家公司後，我順利找到了一份符合條件的美商工作。這家公司在其行業中是世界領先者，擁有超過60個辦公室，服務全球130多個國家。這份工作非常符合我對白領工作的想像。薪資上有達到原先設立的標準，福利更是元超期待，新人年假有20天，還有一天生日假，每年5至9月的週五還可以只上半天班，算下來一年就超過一個月不用上班。此外，公司每年還會安排3次國內外小旅行，偶爾還有機會去吃米其林餐廳。說實話，如果不是親身經歷，我都不信台灣會有這樣的公司。
When I first left school, I had very little understanding of the workplace. So, when looking for a job, I followed the common advice of setting the criteria as “high pay, less work, close to home.” But I was well aware that “high pay” and “less work” often conflict. Money and life were equally important to me, so I referred to government websites and set a baseline for jobs that offered a salary within the 60-70% range of my peers and allowed me to work regular hours.
After interviewing with two or three companies, I successfully found a job at an American company that met these criteria. This company is a world leader in its industry, with over 60 offices serving more than 130 countries worldwide. This job perfectly matched my image of a white-collar job. The salary met my initial standards, and the benefits exceeded my expectations. New employees get 20 days of annual leave, a day off for their birthday, and half-day Fridays from May to September, amounting to over a month off per year. Additionally, the company organizes three domestic and international trips each year, with occasional opportunities to dine at Michelin-starred restaurants. Honestly, if I hadn’t experienced it myself, I wouldn’t believe such a company existed in Taiwan.
蜜月期之後的事 After the Honeymoon Phase
然而，這份工作也有缺點。年底時會非常忙，有一個多月每天都要加班到11點以後。如果真的是因為工作量大，我還能勉強接受，因為面試時公司就告知過這種情況，我也說過可以接受，也不想成為出爾反爾的人。可是，需要到這麼晚的原因是老闆希望團隊有「團隊精神」，大家要等還沒做完的同事一起下班。
此外，公司內部的辦公室政治也非常嚴重，時不時都會聽到同事的爭執，甚至哭哭啼啼的情形也會發生，這主要是源自於管理階層上一些不合理的資源安排，配合上述每天加班到深夜還沒加班費的背景下，年底忙碌期每天到公司上班真是非常耗能。
最終，讓我下定決心離職的最大原因，是對這份工作感受不太到熱忱。試了一年沒有靈魂的工作模式，工作只求及格而非盡力，其餘時間當個「無情的薪水小偷」，原以為這樣當白賺薪水的日子鐵定很開心，但結果卻並非如此，心情上反而變得非常厭世。
這個觀察如果坐時光機，說給剛畢業的自己聽，一定會被笑說：「你怎麼可能會是這麼有上進心的人！」
However, this job had its downsides. The end of the year was incredibly busy, with over a month of daily overtime until after 11 p.m. If this was solely due to a heavy workload, I could grudgingly accept it because the company had informed me of this situation during the interview, and I had said I could accept it. I didn’t want to go back on my word. But the reason for the late hours was that the boss wanted the team to have a “team spirit,” meaning everyone had to wait for their colleagues to finish before leaving.
Furthermore, office politics were rampant within the company. Arguments among colleagues were frequent, sometimes even leading to tears. This stemmed mainly from unreasonable resource allocation by the management. Combined with the background of daily unpaid overtime, the busy year-end period made going to work very draining.
Ultimately, the main reason I decided to resign was that I didn’t feel passionate about the job. After a year of working soullessly, just meeting the minimum requirements rather than striving for excellence, and spending the rest of the time as an “emotionless salary thief,” I thought I’d be happy earning money effortlessly. But that wasn’t the case; I ended up feeling very disillusioned.
If I could go back in time and tell my freshly graduated self about this observation, I’d be laughed at, saying, “How could you be such an ambitious person!”
紫微斗數看事業 Zi Wei Dou Shu and Career
這也讓我想到紫微本命盤上的地劫星，這顆星剛好落在我本命盤的官祿宮上，通常解釋為「主破耗、虛耗，是空亡之星」。所以原本一直以為是不是在職涯過程中，會碰上公司突然倒閉，或者中年時忽然被老闆炒掉的悲慘下場。
但在換了兩次工作後，對於地劫星有了更深的理解，它代表的意思或許是內心常有不安全感、容易覺得不被重視從而缺乏自信，而這些結果的起因源自於想法太多，所以當工作上手變得機械化後，就會有很多時間可以想事情，最後就會得出結論，覺得現在工作沒辦法堅持做幾十年，想去尋找新的刺激讓自己持續進步。
於是，隨著自我認識的增加，現在我心目中理想的工作條件變成：
- 互助且能持續成長的職場環境
- 工作能帶來成就感
- 部分WFH，年假超過20天
- 注重真實效率，不需要演戲
This also made me think of the Di Jie star in my Zi Wei Dou Shu natal chart. This star happens to fall in my Career Palace, typically interpreted as “bringing depletion and emptiness, representing loss.” I used to think this meant I might encounter a sudden company closure or get fired in middle age.
But after changing jobs twice, I gained a deeper understanding of the Di Jie star. It might mean that I often feel insecure, undervalued, and lack confidence, stemming from overthinking. When work becomes mechanical, I have a lot of time to think, eventually concluding that I can’t sustain my current job for decades and want to seek new challenges to keep improving.
So, with increased self-awareness, my ideal job criteria have now become:
- A supportive workplace environment with opportunities for continuous growth
- A job that brings a sense of accomplishment
- Partial work-from-home options and over 20 days of annual leave
- A focus on real efficiency without the need for pretenses